I think long-form writing is something I stopped doing all-together when I dropped out of college, because it was so hard, and there’s so much bullshit associated with it. Getting started is fucking difficult, the research is so hard, and you only really hit your flow when you’ve done all this horrible painful gruntwork. I look at writing like I do exercise… you grudgingly work your way up until you hit some sort of weird endorphin jackpot and then its like you’re swimming, like you’re really stoned, your brain, your body, its just moving at a different pace than it usually does. Its kind of addicting, but it becomes harder and harder to reach that same zen place each time you go. The rewards are just as sweet, but each time you try and you don’t get what you’re looking for, its discouraging.
And I’m a bit of a perfectionist (lol, just a bit) and I couldn’t handle the trying-without-succeeding part, and coupled with all sorts of other issues, dropping out just seemed to make so much more sense than staying in.
So I got a blog and a dumb job and now, two years later, I’m really aching to go back.
Because now the only thing I do to express myself creatively, intellectually, is rant on my dumb blog. Which is all fine and good, and is quite satisfying on one level, but its much much more satisfying to work long and hard at something, and have it hit all the right notes deep down, not just on the surface.
tl;dr — I need to write more, and write better.
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undercoverangryangel said:
We could be writing buddies, maybe, if you want. I need a partner to help me get back to it, too.
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